annette - franking it

I am happy. For the first time in bloody ages.

I made a big decision earlier, a decision thats caused a major wieght to be lifted off my shoulders....caused me to have one less thing to think about all day long.

I have amazing friends, i don't know what i'd do without them.

I love my life at the moment, and all the people in it :)  

Also, 80s style parties where you wear home-made t-shirts rule:

The top says 'made in the 80's'. I made them, i was quite impressed i managed to do something sucessfully!! 

Hey there guys n girls!

Not been around...purely cos theres been nothing interesting to talk about!

I'm same old me, always worrying over something or another..always finding something to whinge about, but at te same time im also still always finding a billion things to have a right good old giggle about! :D

A day isn't sucessful until i've put smiles on the faces of everyone around me and made them all laugh! 

One day i love work, next its boring, next i hate it, then i love it again. At the moment i love it! I attempted to drive the forklift truck twice last week, first time the guys knew i was getting behind the wheel..so they stuck it in slow mode, so i drove it without a problem. The next time i didnt warn anyone i was about to jump in it...i just sorta made i run for it, turned the key and put my foot down. I have NEVER seen a group of people run so fast haha, one of the warehouse guys ran into the office, the other warehouse guy climbed up a stack of pallets, one of the girls i work with just ran as far away as she could....i honestly thought it was in slow mode again. It wasn't. I crashed. Badly. 

I'm alright though, luckily i didn't damage any of our goods, just completly smashed up a pallet. Oops.

Work aside, im doing what i seem to be getting good at doing...falling for someone i shouldn't. But...this time it feels so different...i feel really odd, its crazy and i can't explain it...but i thiinkk its going well at the moment! Will keep you posted!

 Not much else to say really!

I've changed. Completly, and now im worried that i have some sort of psychological problem. I have changed everything about myself. My career is the first one, but with that i've changed who i am....im much more serious and mature. I'm too determined to get things done, and i don't give myself time to have any fun or laugh. I'm far too emotional these days, i get teary eyed over the stupidiest things. I whinge loads and seem to just keep my head down.

Then theres my appearence, i've started worrying loads over that, when in the past i've never cared, i would happily walk out the house with no makeup on at all, with my hair a mess and wearing whatever was at the top of my pile. Now i worry days in advance about what to wear, i keep running late to work and meeting my friends cos im so worried that i look too hideous to leave the house. I'm becoming more girly, i got my ears pierced, cut most my hair off and arranged to get it coloured too.

Then my circle of friends is changing too, i seem to be wanting to spend more time with my new friends who i have barely known for a month over my old friends that i've known for years and always gone out with week after week. I feel like im betraying them, but i also feel like none of them want to know me anymore, that none of them actually give a shit about me, that im just there to keep the numbers in the group up, im just there to be ever-smiling, ever-caring annette, the one who will help you out and look after you every single time you get drunk or into any trouble. I feel like im taken for granted, there to be used rather than there to enjoy my company.

I'm really confused. Why am i changing so so much so so quickly? And its not just like its something thats naturally happening, i seem really really determined for it all to happen, and certain that it has to happen now, that i have to change...

I was always happy with who i was, i liked being me, so why is it that im now so eager to be someone new?

Ok, time for a story alll about my night out last night. It was a disaster, let my tell you all why!
It was a new place that we were going to, a ultra tiny underground club that plays party and indie tracks. I'd only had a tiny bit to drink before i got there so i was still totally sober, and when the bouncer asked if he could see my ID, i got confused and asked him why he wanted to see my iris. Doh. He repeated himself so i gave him my....bankcard. Doh.

Anywayyy, in i went, and i was having a good time, dancing away andjust enjoying my night, when it all went wrong. My mate slipped, and she was falling, and i tired to be superwoman and catch her. Well it sort of worked, i stopped her from banging into anything, she landed on me instead. Me? I fell backwards and smashed my head on a brick wall. It hurt a fair bit, but i just got up and thought all was fine. A couple minutes later i went off to the toilets, where upon my arrival some poor girl started screaming and grabbed me and dragged me out the club. Turns out i wasn't alright, my head was bleeding. Not just a bit either, it was absolutley pouring with blood. Now i don't really remember much after that, i remember an ambulance being called for me, and i remember being rushed to hospital, i remember being whizzed about in a wheel chair. But other than that i was drifting in and out of conciousness, so its all realy blurry. All i know is that i got home hours and hours later, and now my entire bed is soaked in my blood, and my head hurts like crazy.

But hey, i lived to tell the story...and the moral of this story? Don't go smashing your head on bloody brick walls! 

Hey guys n girls :)
Sorry i've not been around, work is mad and i was away at Reading Festival from midldle of last week til Monday just gone.

I had the time of my life! I broke my tent whilst putting it up, so found a distant friend in another part of the camp site and stayed with him, i never really knew him all that well before, and i didn't know any of his friends, so i feel my tent breaking (then being stolen the next day haha) was a blessing in disguise! All of his friends were wonderful people who made me feel so welcome, i got on with all of them and after just a couple hours it was like i had always been one of them. Getting to know my distant friend better was lovely too. Hes a really nice guy and now a really good friend of mine, and hopefully i will see alot more of him and all my new amazing friends!  I had so much fun there though, i spent a bit tooo much of the time drunk, and got to the stage that whilst standing cross-legged, i got confused and thought my legs were on the wrong way round. Oops. I absolutley LOVED watching the Pigeon Detectives and New Found Glory, and watching the Plain White T's perform 'Hey there delilah' was wonderful.

I have already bought my ticket for next year!!

Work is going well, two new girls started last week, so i'm no longer left on my own with a bunch of guys! I really do feel privaliged to have landed my feet in such a lovely work place, everyone on there gets along great and we have a good laugh whilst working well as a team to get the work done! So so unlike my old job!

I'm a bit disappointed with a few friends at the moment, the guy who started rumours about me and another of our guy mates a few months back has started a new set of rumours about me and another of my guy mates. Seems that several of my friends have chosen to believe the rumours without even talking to me first, and now they wont even talk to me at all! I feel let down by them, that not only would they believe such nonsense about not only me, but about the other guy too, but even more let down by the guy who started the rumours. Twice he's done this to me now, and all i've ever done to him is be a good friend, provided him with a listening ear, words of comfort and looked out for him. Ok, so disappointed and let down are understatements, i'm completly gutted :(