my-world-beyond

did my second count on the bills

turns out the bill was quite off the amounts the fucker said

only buy 60 queens heads each

i knew it was way to big

any hoo i don't think he ment to miss count

he seamed as relived as i was to find out

still i would'nt trust him in a live fire situation

but paint ball would be a different matter

any way heres some shit i typed while drunk a few days back

would have posted it then but the platform 27 was playing up

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just stayed up to silly o'clock watching the lost boys

last time i watched that film i was sat next to steph on her bed

she was sleeping i was crying

i could have talked to her at any moment i wanted but i could'nt

i did'nt know how to talk to her

i did'nt know what to say

i was scared to try

i just sat there

i think i know why



i won't bore you all to much

but i came to realize that me and her were a joke only i took serously

i was a one night stand and i could'nt take it

thats why i could'nt fuck her back then and thats why i could barly look at her over new years

thats why she ignored me

i ignored her

her silence to this day is only mached to my own when i was sat in the next room to her or right next to her



i could tick over what if's

or i could get some sand and face it



it all happend because i let it get that far

i could try hating her but she probably found me charming for one night and took pity on me for the rest

it ain't her fault she found me to pathetic to put down



no more

time to become a vertabret

stop posting shit like this to inspire pity from random internet people

time to get something out of the world

there is no fate but what we make

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i'd still jump at the chance to see her again

this time i'll have the words

if i don't then i got nothing to loose if i ad-lib

that is if i ever see her again

but i'm not waiting

i bet she ain't