my-world-beyond

here by listif i such tasks as to be under taken at mine own time

get a job

make liam a cup of tea and spit in it

brew my own beer

sub notes

brave the job center get some thing

don't get mad get even - note that concideration of washing his tea cup in my own urine was thrown out due to high risk

brewing own beer 

--equipment needed (one off buy)

fermentation bucket 25lt - £7-8

air locks - £2.50 for 2

tap - £2-3 

steriliser - 1.50 (re-usible)

--ingredients  

malt extract £8-9

suger 1k £1-2

yeast - 70p (will last several batches) 

all can be gotten at wilkinsons on the high road in derby

fermentation bucket will need drilling for airlock and tap 

can provide 25lt of beer at £27 start up cost with each batch after that costing £12

turn around time 2 weeks per batch

will keep for 1 month after bottleing

beer produced will be around 3-4% and resemble light ale  

dad has taken me through the home brewing method and i've down loaded several e-books with lots of pictures

this could work very well

this could be the best idea i've had all year 

hate to sound like a cracked record but here goes another steph based entry

seams she is completly ignoring me

the first girl to take an interest in me in a romantic manner now is not even accepting the fact i exist

it's all starting to get real taxing on my mind

i got back into a bad habbit today

i boiled the kettle

let it cool a little then poured it on my hand slowly

as slow as i dared 

self harm is a stupid thing 

but i guess it's no different to smoking

both damage my health 

both are frowned upon

both i enjoy in a strange way

only one costs money and can only be done out side and the other removes a layer of skin from my hand in exchange for feeling physical pain to contrast the mental pain

works for me