my-world-beyond

this may be the start of a long session of typeing but my fingers feel up to it

here is what is scarying me right now

i think that stephaine is going to brake up with me very soon

all of the evidence i have is facebook and email based but these are the ways i have to comunicate to her

firstly

she says that her phone is not working so the long but really good phone calls have ended

in many wall posts on her facebook there are many mentions of her phoning peeple and peeple phoneing her

also she has'nt replyed any of my texts scince early august 

secondly

the last time i posted on her wall she deleted it

she did then send me a message and we messaged back and forth for a while in the privercy of our inboxes but still she deleted my wall post  

there i also the photos of her and other bloks that commonly feature as her profile picture and cause a lump in my throat but i think thats just a mixture of jelosy as i havnt phisicly touched her scince friday the 4th of May and plain thugish 'get your hands off my girlfriend' thoughts

guess i should feel better that i've unloaded my fears onto something but i don't

instead i'm just staring at a consice and correct list of my feelings and ...

just got a text from her saying that phone is saying she can text again

have i just been getting paranoid over nothing

i'll go get some sleep