my-world-beyond

hopefuly this should work as last time i tryed to post it fooked up

catch up

back in derby after easter

got my second student loan payment so i'm out of the poverty margin and now just poor

have got my second year housing sorted out

this real plush 4 bedroomed place on wolfa street

the basement looks ready to be turned into a kick ass den

we saw this old cargo netting under the stairs there so we gona hang it up along one wall, chuck in some bean bags or a few milk crates plus i'm going to bring up my pred canvas that is so cool

and now to end on some cool shit from the internet

50 cent vs thomas link 

home cooked beats link

beardy man laying down some beats link

beardy man live on that shit graham norton talent show link  

charlie brooker - angry man with a tv show were he gets all angry at well......tv  link 1 link 2 link 3

till next time

hold your own, stay in the game and keep it cool

had a really wierd dream last night

for some reason i was arranging a vast amount of stationary into piles in relation to like say ......colour 

then i would sort them by type, size, age, manufacturer and so on 

when i woke up i was holding a ruler 

i think i should stay of of the sun today

i'll keep it short

this apeals to my sick sence of humor

nice and fluffy my foot

you kick some ass b man

i know it's a bad thing to do

i know i'm robbing artists of hard earned royaltys

and to be honest you rob your self too

downloading takes the magic of buying a cd away

checking that the shop has it

getting your money together

waiting anxiously in line

walking home with your new acquisition held tightly

sprinting up stairs to the hifi for the first listen

it's a rite of passage

you enjoy the music more coz you've been eagerly awaiting it

you don't get that from watching a bar go from o% to 100%

maybe if you've only got a 56k modem that does 4-Kb/sec at best but thats just annoying

my sister thought i was crazy after i did a 20 min rant about how her generation and those that will follow are going to miss out on this

she thinks i'm crazy any way so no change

any way today i downloaded some symphony X as i've started to like neo classical metal and it's really hard to find

trust me this is not in your average HMV or virgin

there is something about guitar/key board harmonys i find beautiful

and the lyrics are simply epic ramblings about titanic clashes of good and evil and mythical creatures

it's all together ....... weird........but i like it

till next time

this has been the world beyond

brought to you in assocation with the 'neo classical metal for all' program

and the unique contents of james siggins's skull - making irrational decisions with conviction scince 1988 

here i am

at home again

here i am

turn the page

i should be really really happy i'm home but i'm not

in fact i don't feel that over welmed

i seem to enjoy little highs and little lows these days

i just feel ok

i said how great it was to see all my old mates again but i was'nt that excited

i admit that it felt good to be home thats all

it seems that i'm losing the ability to really look forward to things

i've always been a bit of a loner. i've never been afraid to go off on my own and do my own thing

being alone has never botherd me just feeling alone

for the first time in my life i think i feel apathetic

and how do i feel about this     i don't know

i don't think i could tell you if a wanted too

it seems i've lost the ability to care

and i don't know if i'm worried about this or not

i might be depressed but that is a silly concept

depressed people fail to see the point of even getting out of bed in the morning

they are overwelmed with the feeling that every thing they do is pointless that no one cares weather they live of die

i just don't get really angry or really happy

it's like how christmass loses it's magic as you get older 

my emotional range just seems to be short 

the last big emotion i can name i felt was rage

and any one who knows me will back me up when i say it takes a lot of shit to get me to lose my temper 

and when i do lose my temper it's pretty bad

i don't want to go into details but i lost my temper while on the phone to a person whom i never want to see again and ended up kicking a chair across the halls kitchen and punching the wall in my room untill i noticed that one of my knuckles was bleeding

i then listened to some hawkwind and had a mini skin

30 mins later i emerged my usual easy going self and smoked some more weed with my flat mates

maybe i've got some wieird mental condision or maybe it's a dyslexic thing

maybe i should cut down on gangja