cul's comfy corner

after a stressful 7 weeks at school, i decided to have a nice, relaxing friday evening and then stay in bed and have a long sleep before driving all the way up to middlesbrough to get my dad. mcjj came round on friday and we ate chinese and had a great laugh, watched some great tv and caught up on all of the gossip before i waved her goodbye and trundled off to bed around 3am.

saturday, the cats woke me up at 10 [grrr] but i fed them and went back to bed until 3pm. that's when i woke up feeling...good.

it's been such a long time since i've been able to smile and think everything's cool. it's taken a long time to sink in, i guess. my mom is my mom and no amount of operations or therapy is going to fix her so i'll just deal with her as and when stuff arrives. dad is cool. he's recovering well and is elated that the cancer is gone. that's a huge weight off my mind, i can tell you.

still, i feel happy.

my sisters are lovely and though they've both got some difficult stuff going on right now, i know we can work together to solve the problems presented because that's what we do. we put our heads together and sort stuff out, it's what we do.

i've been up north and taken my mom out for the day. we spent loads of money buying nothing in particular but having a great time, laughing and joking like we used to. after a looooong journey yesterday, i've got dad down to mine for a week to let him relax away from that strain of taking care of my mom. i can see it in his face already, he's chilling out and calming down.

still smiling...

it's the little things that are making me smile. seeing the warm orange glow of the sky last night made me smile. hearing my mom laugh like a small child when i rode off on a toy horse at the boot fair raised a giggle. even hearing my dad snore gently in the next room is comforting. he's still here and he's my rock. today i went to find out about my holiday to tasmania for next year. i haven't booked it yet, but getting all of the details has got me dreaming and smiling...

and so, i say to you "what made you smile today?"