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I'm having a very selfish day.  I think it's all this grim weather making me feel gloomy abotu the onset of autumn. I've loved summer - the sunshine makes everybody up for going out all the time, and soon as it gets colder everybody starts wanting to stay in. Noooooooo.. 

I think this is all combined with having had one of my best friends get married this year and another one have a baby. I am of course happy for them, but selfishly hate the way that it stops them being so available as friends.   In my perfect world I just want everyone to still come out and play - why do things have to get boring when people "settle down" - I know that husbands and children have to come before friends..but..well, you know..

I feel like (have I used this metaphor before? Maybe I've just thought it a lot without saying it) that we were all on a big roundabout, whizzing round, screaming and having fun, then while I wasn't looking people started getting off the ride and going over to play on the seasaw with just 1 other person. And now there aren't enough people on the roundabout - and I don't want to get off it yet, I just want more people to hop back on again. Make any sense? I'm not jealous and wanting to 'settle down' myself and I wish everybody else wasn't doing so.  That is horribly selfish. But there, I've said it.

Perhaps I need to trade my friends in for younger models..

Current mood: Sad

Anybody got suggestions as to some (legal) methods of revenge?

Best I can come up with is subscribing to various inappropriate mailing lists...which is pretty lame.

Suggestions?

Current mood: Meanie

I've been slack with this.  Missing having broadband at home - in fact, we don't even have a landline at home yet (hence my astronomic mobile bill...) Must try harder.

My battle with my the freaks old flatmates wages on. It really will end up in small claims court, which scares me a little as I'm worried I'll cry then launch a violent attack if we lose (though they are SO in the wrong that surely won't happen).

No other real news. My life is filled with trivial things, like framing all the gorgeous photos and pictures I've been collecting for ages (including  http://www.flickr.com/photos/macchinafotografica/ Bobble works of art of course). I have such lovely pristine walls now that I'm being anal about precisely the best place to hang each picture. Ah, it's the small things...

Oh, and how I'm loving leggings under mini skirts. Gives you a licence to wear a skirt as short as you like whichout looking like you're screaming about it. I knew those Japanese girls were onto something - they were all doing it when I visited a couple of years ago way before we cottoned on.