Hemorrhage

Happy happy happy...
Happy happy happy...
Happy happy happy happy...
Happy birthday to you...

now, blow your nose.

i hope you got very drunk and wasted last sunday. although tomorrow's your birthday which i knew you dont have time getting drunk becos it's a weekday.

yannick texted me about coming over to your place. it was all too late because it was sunday 6pm. i didnt really want to go there unless of course (1) you called me, (2) it was still afternoon and (3) yannick will come get me. all three of those goddamn conditions. and i dont like getting drunk on sundays when im home. travelling back to cebu early in the morning is pretty tiring. done that few times ago... and what if i just went there. what if she's there? would i slap her? lol hihi

and dan, i hope youre truly happy with your life now. dont come back telling me your stories.

me and my boyfriend of almost 6 yrs broke up because of another girl, who is also into same interest as me and him but only, she's sort of my younger version (only i think she's a bitch, lol). maybe she's prettier? and she is located near to my boyfriend? she can easily fill-in my duties. it is either that she's a slut or my boyfriend's an asshole. now, that probably hit me.

i also have a not-so-close friend who also broke up with his girlfriend of 3 yrs because of differences, because theyre opposite, not because of 3rd party.

what is this? what makes me think that i feel i am of better situation than my not-so-close's friend's ex girlfriend? maybe because we broke up and now he's with another girl who is, as ive said, a younger version of me? i cant think of me and him breaking up because suddenly we're different after all those fucking years. can i sing? lalala lalala lalalalalaaaa. my self-esteem's back. i can smell it.

am i making sense? probably.