Hi5 Falling Stars happy :-)
but im happy i was able to help them. they're really in need. it is just good that i help than waste my money drinking beer. :-)
gloomy thursday
end of story.
Why is it like that? Hmpf.
Control
NOTE: kanang naay sakit sa kasing2x, ayaw nalang ug paminaw ani! hahaha. And yeah, dont ever try listening to Fall Apart.
And here's the goddamn lyrics, dammit. Sooo emo. Pffffttt...
Stuck inside
A world inside my head
A place where I think to much
A place that no one can touch
My godforsaken fear
And though I don't pray enough, I want to
I want to thank you for the tears I've cried
And hope you gave to me
I want to show you what I've kept inside
That takes control of me
Thought sometimes I was left behind
Alone here all by myself
Forced to look at myself
I never will believe
Things they say to me
Line up the bottles to complete this grief
I've held on to for so long
An angry soul I reap unto the people that have ever tried to do me wrong
X
suddenly he looks interesting and good looking again! heh
im talking about the guy who calls himself "x". but his x and my x are just coincidence or of no relation to each other. i have my own definition of an "x". someone asked me why almost all my avatars have an "x" in my forehead. and what does it mean? for me, it means null, banned, unwanted, uncalled for, insignificant, non-existent, mistake, wrong, the denied, the unwanted, the rejected, the error. i guess it also means ex-girlfriend.
i wonder what his x means.
boring people.
A: Hi.
D: Hi.
A: How's life?
D: Eh.
A:?
D: It means: Just ok. Nothing exciting. You?
A: Ditto.
D: Going to tarzan?
A: Ha! No.
D: Why not?
A: I dont like those kind of place. I think you're hubog na.
D: Yeah almost.
A: What are you drinking?
D: Beer.
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chui
he is tall. dreadlocks. cool physique. piercings on his right eyebrow. and three lip rings on his right part of his lips. black fingernails. his facial expression. laidback.
chui gyud. lami taklaan! hahaha
but he was just some random guy eating at Jolibee, Gorordo.
friends
i have defined true friendship few years ago. ive seen friends come and go. but tough are the ones who can say to you who you are, when you are stupid, and what they do not like about you. they are the ones who are with you during your happy times or your bullshittest times. they are the ones who criticize you in front of you. they accpet you for who you are no matter how very weak or annoying you are. and above all, they are the ones who you can be with yourself, even if how shitty your life is. you just know they will be there no matter what.
pardon me. i may sound drunk. fridays are always for beers. but i mean all i said in this entry. fuck hypocrites, of course. and those who pretend they're your friends, fuck them most.
sa office
what's next????
first, the LPG.
second, the detached bathroom door.
third, clogged bathroom drainage.
fourth, flooding on the floor.
what's next? my room is in chaos! im worried.
my filthy toilet!
self-portrait
a vector. i made it in Illustrator. i was really impatient about this one, though. but i kinda like what i did with my hair! i love Ruritania font! :-)
oh, i lost my 7-year-old necklace! i hope it's just there under those sheets near my bed. :-(
Current mood:
Sceptical
)my bathroom door's busted
i hope i can find a nice room to rent one day.
"you are the sunlight that showers me from the dark..."
was it too much to ask from a deeply wounded soul? i myself was burdened with misery. but it would have been okay if i wasnt pre-occupied. tsk. the person i desired came at a wrong time. tsk
here's an excerpt from chester's old poem for me:
"...you are the air that i love to breathe
you are the sunlight that showers me from the dark
you are what i want to love."
but i know if we were, we could have been happier, Ches. but i hope you're happy with your life now. you have found the sunniest persons in your life. your wife and your daughter.
it's still there
bothered sleeping
Nothing Compares To You
It's been seven hours and fifteen days
Since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
Since you took your love away
Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing I said nothing can take away these blues
`Cause nothing compares Nothing compares to you
It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong
I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor n'guess what he told me
Guess what he told me
He said girl u better try to have fun
No matter what you'll do
But he's a fool
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you
Aall the flowers that you planted, mama
In the back yard
All died when you went away
I know that living with you baby was sometimes hard
But I'm willing to give it another try
Nothing compares
Nothing compares to you
by Sinead O'Connor. I just love the way she sing the song. She has such a very beautiful voice. I wish i can sing like her. I wish i wrote that song. Oh yeah, and i can relate. =p
insecure
very worried still. it's past 10pm and im still in the office. i wish i could just drink and go home early in the morning. i wanted to go home but i know i cant sleep well tonight. if it's still there, it will haunt me for the rest of the night. it's like suicide. :-(
what's worrying me
renting a room in a big house with lots of other boarders suck. i dont have friends in the house except G, our landlady, my ex-supervisor. i dont give a damn what other people do with their lives. please just dont leave gas tank in front of my goddamn door. i dont care where they want to cook their food but not in front of my goddamn door, dammit! of all places! i think there might be some leak or does it always smell like that? it gives me foul odor. i think ive been inhaling this kind of gas for days now. i wasnt aware of it until a friend told me about the smell in my place. i told the housekeeper that they should relocate it. they should or else.
:-(
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Birthday song
Happy happy happy...
Happy happy happy...
Happy happy happy happy...
Happy birthday to you...
now, blow your nose.
Happy 31st birthday, Dan!
i hope you got very drunk and wasted last sunday. although tomorrow's your birthday which i knew you dont have time getting drunk becos it's a weekday.
yannick texted me about coming over to your place. it was all too late because it was sunday 6pm. i didnt really want to go there unless of course (1) you called me, (2) it was still afternoon and (3) yannick will come get me. all three of those goddamn conditions. and i dont like getting drunk on sundays when im home. travelling back to cebu early in the morning is pretty tiring. done that few times ago... and what if i just went there. what if she's there? would i slap her? lol hihi
and dan, i hope youre truly happy with your life now. dont come back telling me your stories.
dream home
Looks like my Momo beach...
Please let there be ice cold beer.
Pamilacan Island, Bohol
photos by: Ryan Macalandag
separate ways
my mother's gonna miss my youngest brother so much! im sure she will sail to dumaguete often when she miss him. i think he is excited to go to college there. his face doesnt show some excitement. but i can tell he is. oh how time fly so fast!
my youngest brother. he is passive and he seems to not care. he is sooo like my father. like father like son indeed! haha
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