Hemorrhage

It is Friday. Friday is beer night. My stomach is not in the mood for beer, but i am. If i drink tonight, i swear i would vomit more acid in the morning. Vomit till there's nothing left in my guts but yellow. Vomit till i shed tears. Vomit till i feel pain.

me and my boyfriend of almost 6 yrs broke up because of another girl, who is also into same interest as me and him but only, she's sort of my younger version (only i think she's a bitch, lol). maybe she's prettier? and she is located near to my boyfriend? she can easily fill-in my duties. it is either that she's a slut or my boyfriend's an asshole. now, that probably hit me.

i also have a not-so-close friend who also broke up with his girlfriend of 3 yrs because of differences, because theyre opposite, not because of 3rd party.

what is this? what makes me think that i feel i am of better situation than my not-so-close's friend's ex girlfriend? maybe because we broke up and now he's with another girl who is, as ive said, a younger version of me? i cant think of me and him breaking up because suddenly we're different after all those fucking years. can i sing? lalala lalala lalalalalaaaa. my self-esteem's back. i can smell it.

am i making sense? probably.