Hemorrhage

tonight's podd's holloween party. not sure if im excited though. im going to be my character, purity luna. the bunny-eyed purity luna. the graveyard princess. i couldn't find the black cat from yellow cab anymore, the one with green eyes, cos im gonna call him emerald.

so im not sure. i will not bring my bass. becos i think i still have to watch for my bass amp. i dont know how to enjoy the party after i got an email that says, "Please be reminded also to watch over your belongings especially to those people bringing valuable things."

i will not have fun!!! %&$#@!*(~%#@??

you can tell im not busy at work. this is my third entry for tonight. im busying myself on friendster. checking out my high school classmates' pictures. my god! how others went so fat and yet rich! i think im the only one left behind here. and im glad i am not fat.

some of their photos there are of them and their 'husbands'. one of my former classmates had a caption under each of the photos which says, "i and my dear at makati shangrila hotel", "at the legenda hotel, subic with my darling", "love of my life". aaahh kaluod! i mean, im not bitter about this, am i? fuck no, im not! i think..

yep, this is my YM status at the mo. i guess im just gonna sit here and blog. and download videos or mp3s. i know i will get bored later. but only later in the morning, like 3am? god, its still 10:15pm!

Alice In Chains MTV Unplugged is making me feel sleepy.. guess i have to change my playlist.

my new shift is okay. it a very easy transition as i was already used to staying awake very late for the past few weeks before i got here. 7th floor, keppel building, ayala. i love the big windows. i can see the lights from up here...

he said yes, but distant. no, we were something else before. something special. a friend is someone who is sometimes there to hang out with you, drink some beers, smoke some cigarettes, and exchange some thoughts. and we're not that anymore.

yes, i have another definition of 'a friend'. i have posted it some time ago in my other blog.

a FRIEND is someone who let you be yourself no matter what or how bad you seemed to be because he/she cant change you because you wont.

last night, i went chatting with murphi over the YM. i was surprised she had time hearing my annoyingly kilabs-kilabs stories about me and disney. i dont usually confide to friends or even my family or to anybody. as i thought they will never relate. no one will, they are all selfish. yes even my mother. but it helped cleared my chaotic head for awhile. questions that were left unanswered... they are prob'ly just as they will be... never meant to be answered.

yes today's my last day at Xlibris.